I thought I’d seen so much
Until I saw it all
Used my youth as a crutch
So my ignorance would not fall
I never knew
I never knew
I never knew the world
In its endless, infinite sprawl.
Or
So
I
thought...
I knew everything, deep down
Memories receded
I’d seen life and love and truth
In little moments, long retreated
I never knew the dawn
I never knew the night
I never knew the happiness
Of watching stars fade into sunlight
But
Now
I
Know…
Swimming beneath the velvety black
Dusk gives way to day
Glimmering, burning, glistening jewels
Fade in the sun’s first ray
I never knew the dark
I never knew the light
I never knew the sunrise
Until it made my follies die away
And
I
Could
See…
Years are not what all men need
To triumph in wisdom and relish in life
For I am so young, and still
I’ve seen my share of victory and strife
I collected little moments
I cached them in my thoughts
I knew all that I needed to know
An epiphany cut through me like a knife:
Daybreak
Dawn
Twilight
Night…
All joy and wisdom and meaning comes from
These shared experiences
Of the human life
The only infinity on this Earth is the infinity of the questions without answers.”
-Autumn Brutyn
The River of Life
A poem by Autumn Brutyn
Sitting on the shore of the endless sea
A question came on the wind to me
A question so rhetorical, so subjective, so sweet,
A question without an answer, forever incomplete
Impossible to answer, yet it lingered on my thoughts:
What can encompass life?
Life, so complex, so filled with strife!
A frog on the banks of a never-ending stream?
One speck of dust in the golden sunbeam?
No, not that, that’s not right.
Because what of the endlessly multiplying people?
Billions and billions, like rust spots on a steeple
The infinite wisdom in a dragonfly’s eye?
Each meaningless fleck of dirt in a rancid pigsty?
No, not that, that’s not right.
Because what of the young ones, the old, the bold?
Each spirit, so unique, with hearts warm and cold…
Can nothing emulate it, that tumultuous diversity?
The way the Earth rumbles and shakes, all topsity-turvety?
Maybe, maybe not, but one thing comes close.
Because time will never cease to fly,
I thought, just like the river chugging by
The river, with its millions of glistening bubbles
Bobbing and weaving, like children, no troubles
The river, highway to the sea, comes close
Because it ebbs and flows, angry before it calms,
Has droughts and floods and never-ending qualms
Pebbles shift and change, silt travels downstream
Just like humanity, restless in their dream
That river, roiling and bubbling, comes close
Because...
Life is imperfect
Life is diverse
Troubled
Beautiful
Never a curse
Life is drowning
Life is sweet
Hopeful
Dismal
Take it from me:
There never has been, and never will be, one true answer
Life’s secrets are elusive, captivating, like a masked dancer
But if you seek an answer, please, hear my plea:
Turn to the river! The water! The path to the sea
Because the river,
To the sea
Comes close